Friday, 11 March 2011

Being Creative

Hello and welcome.
I've gone and done it!  With much trepidation I've enrolled on Julia Crossland's Being Creative online monthly project. I have absolutely no idea what I am doing and feel very scared that I will fail.  Similar to Julia's experience , at age sixteen I failed to get a placement on a foundation course for creative studies.  As my next opportunity was to wait until I was eighteen and try to get into the mainstream Art college, it was decided that I must get a job for the two years and so I found myself as an office junior for a firm of Solicitors.  I can't tell you how heartbroken I felt and how bloody useless I felt - I couldn't even get into a FOUNDATION COURSE, I was that bad.  How did I ever manage to gain O'Level Art B+?  And so, somehow in those two intervening years I forgot about my dreams of being creative and forgot about my pencils and sketch books.
Mnay years later and I have slowly started to be crafty again,  but still lack any confidence that I am any good.  I enjoy a monthly 'play day' with my friend, where we create and craft (although lately its been more chat less work!) and we have set up a business to sell items now and then.  Even though I have sold one or two things I have made, I still feel that it was a fluke and that the purchaser bought on a whim without even thinking about the item, only to get it home and not like it.
So, I must be strong and just go for it!  Otherwise I will be stuck here forever, in this uncomfortable place being pulled towards creativity by my heart but being told to stop dreaming by my brain.
Wish me luck!


  1. Dear Debs
    It's quite heart wrenching to read this post, and to know quite well what you must have felt when you didn't succeed in getting on your course. We are fragile little souls and things like that are prone to knock our confidence in ourselves big time.

    However, I am over the moon delighted you have signed up to Being Creative - it is exactly the right place to start taking tiny steps towards infusing your life with little scoops of creativity and slowly building up that missing confidence and self belief again.
    There will be no teachers to tell you that your work sucks or that you aren't good enough - Being Creative is a project that will oooooze with positivity and support. I know that you can do this and will help as much as I can to get you going again.
    Thank you for being brave enough to share your story.

    Love Julia x

  2. Debra, you are one of the most creative people I know; and bearing in mind that I am a member of a church that has creative people everywhere, I know that you are among the best that I have seen. You can do it- whatever "it" is - and be successful. Keep us all posted. :)

  3. Hi Debs
    I too have signed up to Julia's Being Creative and look forward to daking my contribution! I have a science degree and work in Nutrition and Dietetics as a Specialist Dietitian and have always found myself with arty / creative friends rather than scientists! I love that I can be a little bit of Jekel and Hyde and Scientist by day and creator by night !
    Enjoy the rest of your weekend xox

  4. Salut! I found my way here by joining the Being Creative group and just loved the name of your blog so had to look! I feel the same as you - but I have no artistic talent at all, just a feeling that I need to be creative. Oh dear, I wonder how it will all end!! great blog by the way.


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