Hello and welcome.
I've gone and done it! With much trepidation I've enrolled on Julia Crossland's Being Creative online monthly project. I have absolutely no idea what I am doing and feel very scared that I will fail. Similar to Julia's experience , at age sixteen I failed to get a placement on a foundation course for creative studies. As my next opportunity was to wait until I was eighteen and try to get into the mainstream Art college, it was decided that I must get a job for the two years and so I found myself as an office junior for a firm of Solicitors. I can't tell you how heartbroken I felt and how bloody useless I felt - I couldn't even get into a FOUNDATION COURSE, I was that bad. How did I ever manage to gain O'Level Art B+? And so, somehow in those two intervening years I forgot about my dreams of being creative and forgot about my pencils and sketch books.
Mnay years later and I have slowly started to be crafty again, but still lack any confidence that I am any good. I enjoy a monthly 'play day' with my friend, where we create and craft (although lately its been more chat less work!) and we have set up a business to sell items now and then. Even though I have sold one or two things I have made, I still feel that it was a fluke and that the purchaser bought on a whim without even thinking about the item, only to get it home and not like it.
So, I must be strong and just go for it! Otherwise I will be stuck here forever, in this uncomfortable place being pulled towards creativity by my heart but being told to stop dreaming by my brain.
Wish me luck!